2009年9月19日土曜日

It's just a picture....

Today was Sport's Day at the local elementary school.
The local elementary school that Meg will go to from next April.
The 6 year old nencho class at each kinder was invited along as an orientation activity.
I've driven passed it hundreds of times.
It's where we hold the Village Sport's Day so I've been there a few times, too.
But I'd never been there when all the students were there.
All the students... some 800 of them...
The place is huge.....

Got home and looked at the pictures and found this one:


All the things I'm nervous about in one picture:
The line of white ants in front of the big white building are students. There's lots of them. That building is the gym. It's huge. All that expanse of earth between me and the gym is the school oval. It's huge. And there's three other play areas.... and two pools.... aghhhhhh! Meg is going to get lost and no-one will find her- she'll probably be in with the goats or the rabbits....

The red hats are the kids from Meg's kinder. (phew. I know those kids...)
The yellow hats are the other kinder in the village (gulp- there's so many of them....)
The motley line of hats on the right are the kids who go to an out of village kinder. (gulp. City kids...)
The woman in black is Meg's teacher, Yuki-sensei. (She's not going with them- ahhhhhhh!!! I don't know if I can say goodbye to Yuki-sensei... Might have to keep turning up at 4pm just for the chats....)
The woman in the blue shirt is one of the elementary school teachers. (gulp-there' so many of them, and I don't know her, and she's leading my Meggie away....)

And then there were all the stares from people who I haven't met yet. I find it hard to believe there's anyone here who doesn't know of me in a 'did you hear there's some loud, crazy, wild-gardening, foreign woman living up in Nagasaki's old house?' kind of way so I guess they were just putting a face to the name but still, I live 95% of my life without the stares and I always forget the feeling until it happens again. Oh well, it won't be long until they get bored of me I guess...

I've spent the last couple of months talking to M about school and hyping it up and focussing on all the fun and it's working. She's really looking forward to it.

But I forgot about me.

And then I saw this picture and there's M walking away from me, indistinguishable from all the hordes of other 6 year olds, leaving her beloved Yuki-sensei and I behind as she walks into the vast unknown... alone...

Gulp.

It's just a picture.

It's not real.

It's just a picture...

4 件のコメント:

Kim さんのコメント...

Yeah! Or not? But, it is one reason we are considering home schooling. Whether we are here or there, it might be the best fit for our family.

And the stares - I totally hear you! They always catch me by suprise!

Lulu さんのコメント...

What is the average number of students in elementary school here?? My school in Australia was small with only 450 kids from preschool to grade 7- pretty small for a Brisbane school anyway.

Was she excited though? Did she have a good time?

I am sure it is just mummy nerves!


ps: I have to go to a "mama class" on Thursday at my clinic and I am not looking forward to it for the same reason you mentioned the stares. People will stare at me and no-one will talk to me out of fear that I might speak English or some other language other than Japanese to them.

achan さんのコメント...

Hi, I'm a friend of Nay & Sara's, I've been reading your blog now for a couple of months thanks to them!! Someone said you should write a book-I'd buy it, you really have a way with words!!

I thought you really lived in the sticks so I can't fathem how the school has 800 kids. My daughter will be attending a school which has just over 200!!! Her kindy has 42. I can see how she'll get swallowed up. Surprisingly she'll survive but looking from the outside it is hard for us to imagine that they can. Just hope her new best friends don't live on the otherside of the valley!!!

thefukases さんのコメント...

Kim- ahhh see I considered homeschooling for all of a minute and a half. Meg's energy level just wipes me out! But the stares... AGHHHHH!!

Lulu- I think each prefecture does schools differently. Fukushima had some kind of 'every kid should be able to walk to elementary school' policy and there were little bitty three kid schools dotted around the place.

My school in Australia had 120 kids from P-6, and we were the big school in the area! These mega-schools scare me!

Meg had a great time though. She recognised a couple of my students and was quite excited they have taiko drums at the big school. Not sure she realises there's more to school than drumming though....

Hope your mama class went well!

Hi Achan- thank you for the compliment (blush...) I love writing but I don't think I'm disciplined enough to write more than a blog. It's flattering to know that people enjoy reading though so thank you!

We live on the outskirts of a village that amalgamated with Matsumoto city. The village is very long and narrow. Down on the flat lands they converted a whole lot of rice paddies to housing estates and it looks quite suburban (you know rows of houses with the same style but different colour kind of thing) up here is an old neighbourhood with big houses on even bigger blocks. The whole village has 10,000 people but it's very unevenly populated. As a prefecture Nagano seems to favour big regional schools with kids bussed in rather than smaller local schools. So there is one (big!) elementary school in the village. your daughter's school sounds more my style!